When my friend Kelly decided to set 26 goals for the year 2026, and asked her friends if they/we wanted to join her, I was actually feeling a bit excited/motivated. It was nice to see others feeling the same way. But December wasn’t great for me, and then I started the new year with a cold, or the flu, that dad brought home with him.
About a month ago, an Uncle was diagnosed with stage four rectal cancer. We aren’t close, but I don’t want him to die. That was one shock. Then one of my cats seemed to go downhill fast. I think he’s okay now, but on the day we rushed him to the vet, I thought that was it. I felt like I was going to crack for good. When we got home, I showered, then slept for a long time. Every muscle ached, like I was sick again. This was Friday the 13th, last month. He’s been mainly living on churu (senior 10+ chicken, or chicken and cheese occasionally), that he would eat off my finger, and on good days, finish by himself, at least three times a day. Over the last two days, he seems to have eaten a good amount of chicken and other food by himself, and I saw him drinking water tonight, but we still don’t know if it’s an abscess in his mouth, or a tumour. The regular vet, not emergency, told us to wait a few weeks, and see if it went down by itself (an abscess), because a biopsy would cost us $1000. Which is absurd, we don’t have it.
I’ve been waking up in a panic every day, showering, taking a few supplements that chill me out a bit, giving him his first churu, relaxing when he eats it, and I finally get my tea, and settle in for a cuddle with him. Then more panic later on, until he eats the churu he gets before I try to sleep. I’ve been even more sensitive that usual, and owe a couple of people an apology, which I’ll get to another time.
It’s been too long since I’ve posted on a wordpress site. It’s different, and paragraphs don’t seem to exist anymore. I’ll work on that, if I post here again. I will also change the font or appearance of the whole thing, but I saw this, and preferred it for now.
https://26thingsin2026.wordpress.com/2026/03/07/i-am-two-months-behind-everyone-else/
(Wordpress wasn't working for me, but it's suddenly fine.)